Hey everyone, ‘Its been a minute’ is one of those things I can say right now and then use the emoji for ‘hides face’. First ( 1 ) blog since my last blog 2yrs ago and it comes exactly 3 months since the year begun. When I accessed my account since 2018 and so after retreiving my password and set my mind to write I realized that I had a draft that had been waiting for me. Funny it was titled ‘I AIN’T ALL THAT…’ and man isn’t that true. This is how it begun;
When you choose what you want and what you like over what God has for you, you sin. You shortchange yourself and those around you.
As hard a truth as that is, it just is so. For example, blogging I realized is not a thing I just wanted to do because my wanting to do it at my own convinience has put me in trouble with God. That’s not what God wanted and trust you me I have lost alot with regards to God speaking to me on matters ministry. I bless the LORD for grace because He has continued to speak about other areas of my life but I have lost out too. Bummer!!!
The 1st week of April… Yeay happy new month people. Anniversary month for my husband and I, we turn 7yrs old. They say 7 is the number of completion. Mbali tumetoka na mbali tunaenda (we have come from far and are going further ahead, lol transcripting makes it sound so wrong).
Anyway, I have a question? It was a question my colleagues and I were asked last year. In your circles, who is for you and who are you for? Why is this important for you to know? Well there are so many times we find ourselves frustrated about our relationships failing to recognize that you may be expecting too much from a person who you are for and yet they are not for you. Here is the thing there is nothing wrong with this relationship because they may not be able to do much for you. Plus you may be in a better position to mentor or uphold them than they you. What I am saying is, having people who are for you, those you are for and most importantly where the relationship is mutual is important. Thats because they all need proper cultivation but very differently.
I may have mentioned in the past that Sheila Koronge is my best friend and in the last two years our relationship has been tried and tested and allow me to tell you, the enemy doesn’t seat pretty and want to watch healthy and productive relationships thrive. Especially if they will grow the kingdom of God through ministry. I testify that if it weren’t for God we would have lost ourselves in that time. Praying for each other, being patient, kind, tolerant and gracious and maybe more that she would list out ensured that at the end of the day, we weren’t just friends but she is a sister from an entire different family and I can confidently leave my children in her care for she completely fits into the god mothers place. We will probably talk about this season in our lives in the future… wink wink. The Koronges are literally family. We love you guys.
Item 2, 2020 started on a very good note. Anyone noticed how there weren’t many complains on Njaanuary (A long month of January because guys are broke)? I strongly believe that God was getting us ready for this season but hey. Allow me to remind you, you must have heard that 02-02-2020 was a Palindrome date. Incase you only found out like I did that the word existed, a Palindrome derives from the Greek word for running back again, and defines a number, word or phrase that is the same read forward and backward. Yaani (meaning) all you have to do to write that date backwards is change the position of the hyphens but from the back. I was playing around with the same date and here is a silly a fact if I write the date of the 2nd and 20th together 0202202020022020 when you remove the zero at the start, you get the date of 20th written in two versions 20/2/2020- 20/02/2020. Like I said it was a silly fact. I made this discovery on the 20th (runs and hides).
Item 3, I didn’t make a big fuss out of it last year but I turned 30. Yes I did the big 3 0 finally arrived. Prior to my turning 30 I was so afraid to get here. When I was 23yrs old, I dreaded turning 30. I was too afraid to get here without having discovered who I was and what I was meant to be or just having not achieved the things I imagined were essential for a 30yr old. You know married with a first born, 2yrs of age (I had far long passed this mark at 26yrs),
established career path, house on mortgage, driving my own car… that list always comes with variations. All I am saying is there was too much pressure. A few wise friends told me not to worry so much about it. I will not say I didn’t worry, I did but God, through Paul says, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Philippians 4:6 NIV And so I did ask the LORD who, what and where He had planned and purposed for me to be. I can say without a doubt I am exactly where God wants me to be. I bless God everyday but I must tell you… To be and go where you are supposed to be, you need to follow Him every step of the way.
And then guess what I had my 3rd born child on the 3rd of December. That made me Mama Latifah, Lionel and Laurent… don’t ask that will be story for another day. Getting my son on the day that I delivered him is very profound. You see unlike my previous pregnancy I was very very tired. I just wanted him out, by the 15th of November I was already telling guys anytime now. Man didn’t I wait. The thing is I had also been waiting for many promises from God and I realized waiting is not one of my fortes. I was so overwhelmed, with plans to evict him that God had to send people to specifically warn me against it and hold me accountable to it. On one fine day we had a pastor friend visit us at work and we got into a beautiful time of prayer and God spoke through him reminding me that He is the God who makes all things beautiful at His time. Just as I had been waiting for the birth of my child and just as it would surely come, is the same way He would fulfil all His promises to me. I cried, no sobbed because right there I knew that God was teaching me to wait for Him.
Allow me to say, if God said it, He will do it. Don’t hurry up ahead of Him. Its okay to say I am waiting on the LORD, just don’t say it if you have not actually prayed and sought the LORD on the particular area or thing you are waiting for. You cannot stand at a stage / bus stop and claim to be waiting if you don’t know what exactly you are waiting for, can you? So seek Him and while you do, do an actual wait because His ways are not our ways people. Back to the 3rd of December, on with the three. I had my son 3yrs after International Christian Centre Mombasa (do follow this link and find inspiration for the whole family all day) begun to do three services and we had dubbed it the 3rd on the 3rd. A guy my sons birth cannot have come on a better day and way, do you see it? My 3rd on the 3rd, 3yrs after the 3rd on the 3rd.
I know that must have been a very long post. Consider it my journal for catch up. I hope you caught the 1, 2, 3… My encouragement in all of this is our God is beyond anything our minds can begin to contextualize. Even in days such as these, fix your eyes on Jesus. Call upon Him, take your worries and anxieties to Him, where your faith has dwindled ask Him to strengthen your faith, surround yourself with people who are like-minded with regards to faith and hope and if you have none look for new people to follow (the internet is filled with them). Our God is able to do far much more than we can comprehend, bigger than anything we personally think of and shudder in fear and so DO NOT BE AFRAID for ‘Even though we walk through the darkest valley, we will fear no evil, for GOD is with us; His rod and staff, they comfort us.’ (Paraphrased) Psalms 23:4 NIV also JESUS is our Protector and Healer and has given us wisdom and everything pertaining to life and godliness. Kwa hivyo (therefore) to our faith we need to add washing hands, sanitizing, take a bath when you get home before interacting with your home and remember to SELF TRACE it will go a long way.
God bless you and thank you for reading. Feel free to comment with your thoughts and questions which I can answer in a follow up conversation. I hope to see you here again.